I don't know where I went wrong today -- do you hear that? Where I went wrong today. Not in my life -- that's a bigger issue that I have no hope of figuring out. I'm just looking, right now, at where today went awry. This is bigger than your standard-issue Sunday-got-to-go-back-to-work-tomorrow blahs.

Last night I'm wandering around my apartment, tempted to start hitting walls and doors, deciding somehow to forget about women forever. Really, to forget about everyone forever. Thinking perhaps this project is just taking me out completely of the game of life. What is the deal here? Where did I turn....now I am starting to look at where I went wrong in life.

Things have just been so different lately... What is it? Where did all this come from? I feel like the path has just changed recently...somehow...but I can't pinpoint where it diverged, or what's different...or anything.

I've been playing these games where I'm trying to flirt my way to freedom and it's not working, of course... And I just don't know. It's gotta be this work thing... Like my feet are stuck in sludge and I can't move freely.... And I've somehow repolarized myself.... But....what am I missing?

What the fuck am I saying? I.... yeesh. Feel like brain chemistry is altered.

Well, this didn't go well at all.