....because television is manipulative. Because television is another shot of the same footage that made me ill a year ago. Because television is the cover of the Chicago Sun-Times (tabloidis en extremis.) Because television is thinking that a t-shirt that says "Let's roll" is somehow a tribute, somehow not mocking, not cashing in. Television is making money from tragedy, making ratings from tragedy, making a fool of me. Because television is a dark box that doesn't care what I think or what I feel just as long as I think and feel what it wants me to. Because television is a "cathode-ray nipple" that I'm sick of feeding on.

And it is not the dragonfly with its weird appendages that is flying in place, flying sideways, the wind wreaking havoc on its abilities, with me shading my eyes from the sun to see it, to try to figure out what those weird appendages are, is that dirt? a tree leaf? Spider Man's webbing? Does not encourage me to deal with things, because once I've dealt with them, will no longer need it.